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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 09:06

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

What is the most offensive thing someone has ever asked you?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She found it foreign!.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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I have no regrets .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

What is a good habit and what is bad one?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I couldn’t, believe it.

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We were not on the streets..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

All the time i was locked up.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

My life is so biszare .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was very sick at this time too.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Ive learnt so much.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I could never make a relationship work though!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She loved him until the end.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But ive been too sick for many years..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Comes on , in middle age.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Why did i forgive my father ?

I was seconnd youngest,

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Would this be the day?

So whats the point in blame.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Who then, do I blame.?

This is soul school!.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

What did i know ?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She was in good health!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I write beautiful poetry .

And i lived it daily.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I was scared of men, in general

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I did it because my mum asked me too!

One cannot live in the past .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

When she asked me how she looked .

As i do to all so called friends.?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I don,t even have a pension.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But, we were locked up after school.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I waited trembling.

Im still living with it.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

She married twice! .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He knew the spot.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

We all went to grammer schools

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My family never makes their pension either.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

So, i spoilt her more .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I said to her

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I was 9 years of age.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Put me off passion for life!!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

She wouldn,t have been !

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But it wasn’t much.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I think the readers, may guess!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I will be 64.

(And it was in our own minds.)

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

It was going to be , some day.